Friday, December 30, 2011

The first Shot!

Ahhh! The first shot is over! What a day. Not only was it the first day for the shots but the day involved a bunch of running around.

So- the injection was not nearly as awful as I had predicted it would be. I don't mind needles or shots, it was just the thought of poking myself that I was worried about. I have never had to poke a needle anywhere in my body, let alone by belly!

I was holding the needle and had it against my stomach and just had to bite the bullet and do it! No going back, so I pushed it in- holding my breath, and then it was done! :)

So- thats that!

We have a tentative schedule with transfer date of the 8-9th of Febuary, of course pending the blood work and U/S and Egg retrival!

I am so happy to be at this place.

Thursday, December 29, 2011

Tomorrow is the big day!

Tomorrow is the first day of Lupron injections! My journey has offically begun! Months...no years of testing, matching, waiting and here we are! I decided I wanted to do this right after Karli was born. Then I had to wait to until she was done nursing, and then I was matched and that fell through and now here I am ! I am so happy to be at this place. Finalized contracts, Medicine is in my bedroom waiting for that first injection and my IM is looking up flight prices for a transfer sometime around Feb. 8th!

I can't believe that this day has finally come. I am scared out of my mind to stick myself for the first time tomorrow, but I am sure that it will all be ok! :) I don't really mind the needles it doesn't bother me at the Dr and I have donated blood before, I just don't know how I feel about sticking that needle in my own belly!

I am sure I will be back tomorrow to fill you all in on how it goes! I appreciate all the love and support I have had and continue to receive during this process. All prayers are appreciated, I am hoping that this is a one time shot- That on the first try we get pregnant and that my IP's can be holding their baby at this time next year! ;)

Saturday, October 15, 2011

Remebering Babies in Heaven...

Today we remember all the babies in Heaven way before their time. Way before we should have to say good-bye to them. Its always so hard for me to know how to feel on this day and then to try and cope and move on. It is however part of my passion to give back and part of the reason being a Surro is close to my heart. I can't even begin to imagine what it feels like to loose a baby, either during your pregnancy or after birth. I just can't.

Before Ethan passed away it was something that happened to other people. Sure I hurt for them. Sure I was sad. My brother only lived 10 days, but much like the rest of the world it was never something we talked about. I have only seen 2 pictures of him ever and no one even mentions his name.

Then came Ethan. I can't even begin to explain to you how I feel about that little boy or the emotions and thoughts that run through my head everyday. What I can tell you is that it has taught me alot about life and that these things can and do happen to the people we love the most and that we don't always understand why these things happen.

I am not a perfect person and I can't be everything to everyone, but what I can do is help someone have a baby and give them the greatest blessing.

Baby Loss is not taboo, its just hard to accept and talk about because we are human and it just doesn't seem right. Have faith in God and know that although we don't always know the reasons for things, God has a plan. Ethan has touched more lives than I ever knew possible.

My Surrogacy Plans are still in place and moving forward. I hope that I can give back in memory of that sweet baby that we all had to say good-bye to, way too soon.

Love you Ethan!

Saturday, August 13, 2011

Moving quickly!

Things are moving along so quickly in the process this time. Its exciting and nerve wracking at the same time. I have to have a polyp removed from my uterus, but other than that it seems that things are a go. I have started BC pills to get my cycle together with my IM's. and as far as I can tell everything else is a go. I have a contract to be reviewed and I would imagine that we will have a transfer sometime in Sept/October. It should be an exciting fall. The strange thing is that its one year from last year when I went to New York for the first time. I still struggle with trying to maintian my weight and am a little afraid that the BC pills will cause some weight gain. I guess we will see. I am hoping for success on the first try! :)

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Back in the Saddle!

Well, I am back in the saddle again! It took a while to get past my last match and how that didn't work out after time, energy, feelings and money had been invested! I have been working on loosing weight... Its not easy... its actually a tough journey. I don't have much free time and the time I do have I don't always want to spend working out. But I have been eating better, and with my promotion at work, I am no longer sitting on my butt all day, but standing which is a good thing. Standing and walking for pretty much eight hours a day is a blessing for me. I hated sitting day in and day out... I have been matched again. This time with a couple, the IM can not carry past 25 weeks due to a tilted uterus. They are sweet people. She has a son who was born at 28 weeks and he seems like a sweet boy. They both work in the medical feild and seem like very nice people who just want to have a baby. I am excited to get to know them better and the hope of bring a sweet baby into their lives brings me some joy. I know I am excited for this process to being and hopefully this time we have no glitches! I am continuing to try and loose the weight and more... that way I can be sure thats not an issue this time when I go to NY. I am not going to get as involved or as excited this time, until I have that signed contract in my little hands, but in the mean time this is great thing! I am looking forward to creating the journey and moving forward!