Monday, April 30, 2012

Oh the Waiting!

The waiting game... no one likes it-- no matter what you are waiting for, it makes the time go by ten times slower and all you can think about is what is you are waiting for...

The countdown to graduation, getting your Drivers Liscence, Being 21, getting married, having a baby, a job interview, a first date, tests...  It really doesn't matter what exactly the weight it- it sucks!

The problem for me with the 2WW, is that its not my future that is resting in the palm of my uterus!  Its another family.  Yes, my life will change phyically for the next 9 months or so- and emotionally I will be forever changed as I help create a family for someone special... but on a day to day basis after pregnacy its not my life-  Its someone elses'... and knowing, hoping, praying, wishing...nothing I can do at this point will change the outcome of what happens on May 8th!  Its either going to be positive or negative.    Its up to my body and these little embryos' to just nestle on in and do their thing. 

I hate waiting... I know the day is around the corner... 7 days from tomorrow to be exact!  But could the time go any slower... I want to test at home, but will resit, I want to know the results, but at the same time I don't!

Ok May 8th... Lets hurry up and get here!  Hopefully a few things will be able to keep me busy and my mind off this test for a few days anyway... Rockies game, work summer bbq, church, friends...  Who am I kidding..


See- now I feel better!

Thursday, April 26, 2012


Well, today was the big day....

We transfered 2 (5 day) frozen embryos.

The Dr graded these two 4AB and 4BA, where a 5 is the best!  So we are all hoping and praying for the best outcome.  I will have my beta test on 5/8 to see if this worked this time... Until then I am going to restrain from taking any home tests and just await the outcome of the blood test, it was too stressful to see the negative all the time.   So- the 2WW starts now-- The waiting is always the hardest part- so I will try to keep my mind of things... I have a few fun things coming up- and I spending time with my friends is always a plus. 

Here is to the sticky babies and hoping that this is the month that helps make some wonderful people I call friends a family!

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Time in the Airport!

Well, its that time... time for me to head to the East Coast to see J and M!  I am super excited to be going this time... 

My first transfer was a wonderful experience, but J and M and I, had never met... we had talked on the phone a few times, and texted, sent many emails and lots of texts, but you honestly never know how things will be until you meet someone.  I was nervous, I am sure they were nervouse, they are trusting me with something so precious and close to them!  :)

This time, I don't feel like it will be so nerve wracking.  J and I talked alot and shared a lot of stories while we waited for the transfer last time, so I am hopind that this will also be alot of the same, sharing stories and laughs. 

Last time, she had a car pick me up at the airport- this time she is coming to get me!  I am excited and nervous, I hope that everything goes well!

I feel confident and happy that things are going well!  Wish me luck as we take the next step to helping create J and M's little baby!

Monday, April 23, 2012

Take 2

Well, we are well on our way to our second transfer.  My Appt is for Thursday at 12:30 pm.  I started my PIO injections last night, and had my last pre transfer monitoring appt today....

I can't even begin to express how much I want this to work- I can't even begin to tell you how much my heart aches to help bring J and M's dream of a child into their lives and their homes.

I know its all in Gods hands so- we just have to wait and see-

I am leaving Wednesday morning and will be back on Friday morning... then begins the wonderful 2ww, where this time I am bound and determined to not POAS!

Its going to be a long week, but hopefully one of the best weeks of my life and the lives of the people I have the pleasure of calling my extended family...

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Monitoring Appt!

I had my second monitoring appt today!  Things went fairly well, I guess...

I was expecting the Dr. to say that everything is looking great and ready for a transfer...instead he said that I need to up the dosage of meds for another week and see what my lining looks like next Thursday!  That just seems icky!  :)  I am not looking forward to adding some additional estrace to my diet- all for a good cause, I just know that occasionally if I have had to double up in the past it has caused me to feel AWFUL! 

So we will see what next Thursday brings, the waiting and not being able to plan part is hard.  I am sure its hard for J and M too- not knowing when to book a ticket or a hotel room. 

So- one more week of Lupron craziness and Estrace and we will see where we are that!

Thursday, April 5, 2012

First Monitoring Appt of this cycle

Today I had my first U/S and Blood Work, for our current cycle.  Its always kind of an exciting but nerve wracking day!  Its the day where you find out if your body is reacting the way it should to the meds.  If they have to up your meds because its not working they let you know.  Thankfully both last cycle and this cycle, I have not had an issue with my meds.  My body does exactly what it is supposed to do.  Now they might make me crazy, but the Lupron stops my egg production and the Estrace thickens my lining... Perfect!

Now if I could just convince those embroys that they want to stay inside for 9 months, it will be wonderful!